So, I have been writing to actors in off broadway productions and I got a contact. Amy White is an actor who has been in the musical revue, I love you, you’re perfect, now change for 7.5 years. I am so glad I got something!
We will be leaving for New York a week from tomorrow. I have never written so many identical lists down. I have started to become slightly obsessive over the details of the trip. In every small notebook I own, there are lists and notes for contacts, plays, places to eat, places to go. Even though we have the wiki, I cannot stop writing snippets of details down. My instinct is to run home each evening and get back to feeling comfortable in home base. Being in my home with my family and just feeling safe. I am trying to keep myself incredibly busy and occupied so that I do not think about the idea of being without my comforts (mum, dad, etc.) . I am really excited, but I am frightened. I am sure some think I am completely nuts! I plan to go home on Saturday evening just to get clothes and get another suitcase and such. Mum asked me to stay until Sunday evening and have our regular Sunday roast- I have rehearsal Sunday evening so that is out. I am actually rather glad I will not be staying until Monday morning. I have a couple of intense exams before we leave, and if I stay home- I know I will not want to leave home. I know this is ridiculous…I am 20. I am not going to New York by myself. I have lots of people around me. But Lucia made a great point. No one should be anyone’s mum while we are away. I know she meant: waking people up, having to clean up after people etc…- but when thinking about - I do not want anyone to be my mummy or guardian while I am away. I think this is going to be a really great experience for me, but I am getting a little anxious and frankly- very nervous.
